Hello?

White rat with gray spot sniffing the camera

About

Who are you?

Call me Vess (it/they). I'm just an average human being that doesn't know how to be one.

I've always lived a rather limited life with little sunlight & human interaction. I'm like a jellyfish: I drift wherever the waves take me. I don't believe we need to have a purpose. It's okay to want to survive & nothing more.

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I'm used to being alone, but it does get lonely here. Maybe one day, I'll be able to go out in the real world & live like everyone else. The internet isn't exactly the best place to spend all my time, but it's all I have for now. I hope to find friendship, love, & acceptance. Show me what it's like to be alive!

I constantly feel a distance I can only describe as a whole galaxy between my conscience & physical existence. Most of my life, I haven't felt like a person, only a conscience contained by a human body. Kind of like a printer with no cartridge: it can't print unless given one. I always used a non-human creature or fictional character as my cartridge, & as a way of representing myself. Multiple of them have came & gone, with the current one being the first that is the same species as its container. I think this is the closest I'll ever, truly, be to a singular, complete human. I do not consider Vess to be a persona; it's essentially just a character that looks like me & has my personality. It's more like an incomplete bridge between the brain & body, which only brings them slightly closer.

Interests

  • Lobotomy Corporation
  • Sprunki
  • Domestic rats (of the winged variety too!)
  • Butterflies
  • Hardcore & many of its subgenres

I'm usually only fixated on a few things at a time, & they don't change often. I always talk about these things!

Hobbies

  • Computer music, audio engineering, & synthesis
  • Drawing
  • Birding
  • Photography & photo editing
  • Beading
  • Coding
  • Daydreaming about my wives

What do you use for visual art?

For digital art, I use IbisPaint X & my finger on my phone, or Clip Studio & an XP-PEN Artist Pro 16 2 on my computer. For physical art, I often use Sharpie paint markers, pencil, stamps, stickers, strings, or beads of various origins, ages, & qualities. Everything that has been forgotten, abandoned, or left to rot, deserves to be loved again, until it is reduced to ash. I've always thought the phrase "nothing lasts forever" didn't make sense to me. I think everything lasts forever, just not in its purest form.

What do you use for audio?

I use a combination of several softwares & hardwares. FL Studio is my main DAW. My production speed is unimaginably slow, but I won't give up. Audio captures emotion in a way no other medium does, & I could never throw away what I've put so much work, love, & memories into.

Notes

Sometimes I intentionally misspell things like "yocky" "aweome" "fone".

I have strange memory patterns & may end up doing things then forgetting, such as posting the same thing more than once or deleting things that weren't supposed to be.

Warnings

If you're wondering if you should block me, or why I blocked you, the following section might tell you. I'm not trying to be rude, I just want other people to be aware of my stances on certain topics, if that's important to them. You can ignore it if online stances don't matter to you. This is not a DNI.

I may block others for...

  • Moral engagement bait ("repost if you hate _____", "_____ is bad", quoting/replying to abusers)
  • Using watered-down terms or insensitive euphemisms in serious discussions
  • Frequent discourse
  • Overgeneralized assumptions
  • Distributing porn for the sake of ragebait, expressing disgust, or "spreading awareness"
  • Supporting harassment, exaggerated accusations/callouts, or censorship
  • Assuming that interaction is endorsement
  • Carelessness toward minors
  • Being significantly younger than me

Please don't talk to me about things like queer label drama, syscourse, or fiction/reality nonsense. I am a tired hormonal (almost) 20-year old & I don't have the time or energy for this.

I try my best to respect others' boundaries. But if your DNI contains something with a loose meaning ("basic DNI", "problematic", "weird", "pro/anti-whatever") or a specific individual, there's a good possibility I genuinely don't know what you're talking about because it heavily depends on your personal definition. I have no idea if you're comfortable with my presence & I might be less inclined to approach you.

I think it'd be really nice if you just block me if you don't like me, & don't say anything if you find out I've blocked you. Making public posts about people is a waste of time & will get you nowhere.

This is all I'm going to say & I'd rather not discuss any further. I try to avoid getting into meaningless arguments as much as possible.

I don't tolerate...

  • Real life gore, self-harm, or eating disorder content
  • Pro-para/pro-contact/radqueer
  • R-slur users
  • RPF/raceplay
  • AI slop
  • Bigotry
  • Anyone who condemns my existence or rights

I will krill you!!! 🔫🦐

I will krill you!!! 🔫🦐

I will krill you!!! 🔫🦐

I will krill you!!! 🔫🦐

(Don't take the krill thing seriously)